I have had to remind myself about this several times today. I was missing someone so much today and I kept telling myself. It is okay! When the Higher Power decides, we will meet again sometime. It might be in heaven, in our dreams, in the next lifetime, whatever one believes. When you miss a loved one who isn’t with you anymore. Place your hand on your heart and feel your heartbeat. The heart connection always lives on. I miss you! I love you!
Today I’m feeling sad and blue, it’s a low energy cycle week. I don’t know if it’s the new moon or I’m just missing my old routine, old friends….what life was…when things were more simple, before all the transitions and awakenings and messages.
Some days letting go of your past is easier than other days, especially the things you have no control over. One has to reprogram one’s mind to the new way of processing and feeling. When I’m feeling this way, I try to meditate, stay in the present moment and use positive affirmations. One mindful practice that is working is visualing myself standing under a waterfall and cleansing and healing from all the wounds. I see a bright light on the other side of the water. I stand there. A second one is to imagine myself in a big protective bubble, a orb that has nothing but love and positive energy. Both of these practices are helping. I know this is temporary and these emotions shall pass.
Love, and blessings to everyone
I’m feeling sad and have a heavy heart this morning after I learned of the passing of Dr. Maya Angelou, she has been an incredible inspiration to me. Her poems and quotes have uplifted me. May she continue to shine her light in heaven. Rest in eternal peace dear one.
I’ll share my favorite quotes of her today.
Whenever the clouds of pain and sadness loomed,
Whenever tears came till the eyelashes,
Whenever this lonely heart got scared,
I told my heart, Oh Heart, why do you cry?
This is what happens in this world…
This deep silence…the world has distributed it to everyone,
Some sadness is a part of everyone’s life,
Some sunshine is a part of everyone’s life,
Your eyes are wet without any reason,
Every second is a new season,
Why do you let go of such priceless moments?
Oh Heart, why do you cry?
I just saw this amazing picture and quote :
“I feel truly blessed by the people who love me.
And that I’m able to tell them that while they’re still here and able to know how much I appreciate them.”
Most people only start appreciating what they had only after they lose it. I always interact with people with the mindset that every meeting, every exchange could be the last. I didn’t always share this perspective, but one experience, one relationship has taught me this valuable lesson.
Sometimes those folks who are meant to provide us comfort, joy, love and healing are the ones who end up wounding us the most, this is the tragedy of our life. It can be a family member or a friend, or someone we trust, its always those that are close to you and not a stranger or an enemy but what can you do. We are social beings who need love and companionship, so we have to keep opening our hearts and forgive those who have wounded us. I admire and respect those who can forgive and move one so quickly. I’m working on letting go and let the light enter my wounded place. I learned to forgive someone once and the same person came back and stabbed me again so now, I’m left wondering, why did I forgive the first time, I wouldn’t be here now, but that’s not living in authenticity because if someone asks for forgiveness and you offer it with your open heart, you have to start over. Somethings are not meant to have happy endings. In time, I know in my heart that this darkness, this loneliness, this heartache, is a gift. It is saving me from a lot more pain down the road. All one can do its own your part in the story. Appreciate that their behavior is on them. Let them live with the consequences of their actions. Some have a conscience and others don’t even have a clue, have no self awareness whatsoever. Listen to how people talk about others, they are showing you their character, when they show you who they are the first time. Believe them!
Today I’m feeling a little sad and lonely and that is okay. This is something new for me, allowing myself to express all all of my emotions is living an authentic life. Society forces us to put on a happy face even when we are hurting inside. Tears can be very cleansing for your soul. Check in with yourself, with your body and ask yourself? How am I feeling? What does my body need from me to take care of myself? I’ve spent so much of my life nurturing and caring for others that I forgot to take care of me. My life shifted when I realized that I needed to stop and let the world be. Loving yourself first is so important. So do something good for yourself today. Look in the mirror. What do you need?
Usually I share an inspirational message to accompy the picture, but today I’m sharing my personal wounds to wisdom.
Sometimes a persons behavior can be so out of the ordinary that you just have to shake your head and wonder what in the world is going on. This is how I’m feeling today. Let me explain,
Two weeks ago my best friend, someone who I adopted as my little sister, decided that she wanted to control, alt, delete me from her life. No warning, no notice except the usual I need to find myself speech. I was in shock at how cruel and heartless other people can be. You can show care, affection, compassion, love, think of them like family yet they will cut you loose and throw you away like garbage. Just now, I looked at my phone and it accidentally synced the 805 conversations we had shared and I couldn’t believe it. How can someone turn you into a complete stranger over night. No answer. Reality Bites!
I even tried to explain to her that when you adopt someone in your heart , you don’t just delete them from your life. I wouldn’t do that if I had adopted a little boy or little girl and I can’t do that with her. Anyway life’s journey is about trust, vulnerability and learning painful lessons. This one really cuts deep.