Wishing everyone a blessed day, find the peace and joy in your life. Spend time with those you love, express gratitude for all the blessings in your life. Offer prayers for those who are sick and suffering. May God have mercy on them and ease their suffering. We are experiencing an energetic shift. We are becoming more multi dimensional beings. The key to understanding spirituality lies within the quote that “we are not human beings having a spiritual experience but spiritual beings having a human experience.” By having a strong sense of faith, belief in a higher power, belief in the after world and your spirit guides, all of this together will make you transcend the superficial material aspect of life. Those people around you, will not recognize the changes you are experiencing, and if you share your experiences with others, they will be come frightened and not believe you or worse will think you are crazy,so be very careful and not talk about your connection with the other world unless you are around others who can understand it. I started my spiritual awakening a few years ago and it changed my personality. When I started to share my feeling and emotions with others, I could sense how uncomfortable others become so I’ve learned to no longer share with one else who isn’t on the same journey of healing the planet. Blessings, Amen
Sharing some inspiration from a course on the topic of writing for healing from the Daily Om site.
“Our lives may be determined less by past events than by the way we remember them. You are capable of discovery and re-visioning through focused journaling. You will be engaged in exercises designed to facilitate healing and transformation. Telling stories about our past through focused journaling can help change our perspectives to enable healing and empowerment. In this way, we are able to make meaning out of memory and put the past where it belongs – behind us. Healing and transformation are only possible through changing one’s perspective from within. In this way, global healing takes place one individual, one tribe, at a time. What story are you living? How do you choose to remember your story?” This is what I’m trying to do- baby steps- each day getting stronger- becoming empowered- moving toward Wholeness-
There is a Native American parable about a grandfather who says, I feel as if I have two wolves fighting in my heart. One wolf is the vengeful, angry one. The other wolf is the loving, compassionate one.” When asked which wolf will win the fight in his heart, the old man replies, “The one I feed.”
How do we learn to “feed” the stories that heal?
How do we put together the pieces of our past? How can we rewrite our life story so that pain becomes meaningful and actually promotes growth and transformation? One answer lies in focused journaling.
Examples of focused journaling include
Re-visioning Your Life
Integrating the Opposites: Standing in the Light, Facing the Dark
Soul Dialogues: Getting in Touch with your Inner Visionary
Focused Journaling: A Powerful Transformational Mirror
A Shamanic Journey: Communicating with your Spirit & Ancestral Guides
Discovering Your Personal Myth: Transcending the Archetype
Overcoming Trauma: Beyond Traditional Psychology
Looking Back, Growing Forward
The goal is to heal a split within ourselves.
Remember, the road to healing is long but the rewards for your soul are immense. We spend so much time meeting our worldly obligations. We must also nourish our soul, be kind and gentle to our wounded spirits.
Love & Healing
I just woke up from an amazing meditative experience. You never know what each meditation will bring you, but sometimes if you are still enough, and can quiet your mind, you achieve this higher level of consciousness. I saw this breathtaking vision, it was a form of paradise, angels were there, everything was tranquil and there was a stillness there. I could sense this overwhelming sensation of love just fill my body. I woke up and tears were rolling down my face. It was a deeply spiritual experience. The more still I become, the more inner peace I feel. I used to have this restlessness in my body that is slowly dissipating. My soul is healing. My spirit is lighter. I can connect to the light within me. I love this feeling. When you start to release the attachments that come with the ego driven life you experience the nirvana.
I’ve been teaching conflict resolution classes for several years now but that doesn’t spare me from all the conflicting relationships in my life. What is important is for individuals to realize that conflict is a natural part of life, the next step is to identify what the triggers are in situations that escalate and become a negative spiral and those that are dangerous patterns such as abusive or violent behavior. I recently came across an article on the Internet, telling folks to “cut out people from your life” that have a “toxic impact” on your life. This self help article was full of so much bias that it really gave me pause. We have so many people who are struggling from depression, mental illness, stressful financial situations and hurting in other ways, they want a quick fix to solve their emotional problems, so looking at Google or Facebook seems like the way to go. What frightens me is that it is so easy to put everything in a box, generalize, stereotype, and follow advice of these types of articles, without thinking through a particular situation. I recently learned about a friend who had joined a cult because she had joined some online group and fell into what messages she was reading. Another friend left her husband and family to “go find” herself because she was tired of following society’s rules and lastly a third person stopped communicating with her parents because she had read a lot about repressed memories and was convinced that her family had lied to her about her childhood. These are all serious situations and I’m not suggesting that one shouldn’t research on the Internet. I’m cautioning on making life altering decisions based on a book or article. Life is much more complex and so are human relationships. Seek professional help if it’s necessary, seek a medical diagnosis if symptoms aren’t improving- this is the down side of technology-
One word captures my 40th year around the sun- that is.. Resiliance!
When I was a child, 40 seemed so old, right! But as one ages, you grow into your soul body. You start discovering who you really are, what your purpose is. In your 20’s, most of us don’t have a clue what is going on around us. For me, the shift in awareness started at 30, but it’s really the last few years that have led to the transformation and awakening that has put me on this new path. I can say, I am comfortable in my skin. My inner warrior spirit has always been strong, it has protected me through a lot, but now I’m working to let my guard down. I’m working on letting the vulnerability flow, sharing my gifts with others. I want kindness and compassion to flow through me. I want to serve as a light being for others. Last year, I had a vision to write a book, titled Wounds to Wisdom, a collection of healing stories of resilience, how others have also experienced a transformation and an awakening that has resulted in a shift in their lives. At the time, I didn’t know, how real that title would define my own life- especially this last year. I can say that my own “wounds to wisdom-” story has reaffirmed my commitment and desire to complete this project. My goal this year is to connect with others who have a personal story of healing, transcendence, love, compassion and of Resilience- together- by sharing our stories of hope and inspiration, we can become a tiny drop in the ocean- a small wave of love-
So as the sunset’s today on this my 40th year- here’s to letting go- of all that has changed, all that has passed, holding on to the sweet memories, the gold that I’ve claimed for myself- my wisdom- my- creativity- my freedom-my peace-my authenticity-
Yes! Resilience- ——-
This week I was in a gathering when one person shared that someone had told her that she should write down her raw emotions and capture the feelings in a journal, so when she reviewed what she had written, it would be a mirror, a reflection of where she is in her healing journey. I always felt so raw and exposed to open myself, to be vulnerable with others. I’ve never been good with expressing my emotions. I’ve worked very hard over these last few years to tear down the walls and share myself with those who are closest to me. I consider this still a work in progress. A few recent setbacks have temporarily messed with my equilibrium but I’m confident that I will endure and get through the current challenges.
I started this personal blog in November 2012, when I was so broken. I was hurting, in a dark place and trying to get centered and grounded. These last few weeks, I’ve suffered new problems that have made me experience a wave of emotions. But, going back and reviewing all my old inspirational quotes, pictures and messages have served as healing therapy. I can read a poem or look at a picture and immediately anchor what I was feeling and experiencing at the time.
Writing is a form of healing, it empties out the emotion that is trapped inside your body. I’m an empathetic, sensitive soul so I feel things very intensely. It takes me a while to process all my feelings. So the last few months, I’m having to deal with the death of a young family member, loss of a job,loss of my closest friend, and reliving childhood trauma- I retreated back into a wounded child state. I felt angry for what had happened to me, feeling sorry for oneself is the first place of retreat. Today, I’m feeling a lot more reflective, I have a birthday approaching in a few days so I’ve been telling myself that I’m going to be a another year older and I should focus on everything I’ve gained this last year instead of what I’ve lost. My heart should be full of gratitude because of the many blessings in my life. Yesterday I went to the mall and saw a group of young teens who were on a field trip from our local blind school. Watching walk around the mall with their canes made me put life into perspective. All of us have a destiny to fulfill, it is okay to feel sad and lonely and grieve the losses but the soulful ones, pick up the pieces, find purpose and meaning in their life and focus on the good. Today I commit to focusing on the good. To forgive those who have hurt me, to look at them with love and compassion, to acknowledge the grief of those that have passed and to release the wounds of the past. I don’t want my present life to become a prisoner of my past. I don’t believe that time heals old wounds, but I do believe that with time you can touch the scar and not look at it from the wounded place, instead view it as a symbol of endurance.
I wrote about the number 805 a few days ago because that is the exact number of IM conversations that I had exchanged just between last August and this April with someone who was my little adoptive sister, my best friend, my soul sister and the one person who I had depended on for the last few years of my life-to always be there- through each other’s joy and sadness. We had supported each other through so much, issues with work, sick kids, sick pets, disagreements with family, our soul journey, our spiritual awakening. This was the most authentic and genuine connection, I believed in my heart that we must have known each other in past lifetimes. There was a strong energetic pull. We were in touch every day. There was incredible synchronicity, mental connection and respect for each other’s intellect. For me,
I really didn’t believe in any of that soul connection stuff until I had met her. This was no romantic relationship, I’m grateful that we are both straight otherwise man this would have been even more complicated. Yet in the end, I got dumped and the relationship was dishonored and left me feeling like I was some cheap one night stand. Really, that’s what it has felt like. I have a lot of shame around that- perhaps that’s how folks are dumping each other these days-social media-you date someone for a few years and then you just want out- I think that’s where the disconnect was- for me it was a life long heart connection and for her it was just a relationship of convenience. I could hear things that others could not but now that there are others that are available to listen, I became disposable.
Last year, we had shared a special poignant exchange on Mothers Day as she was remembering her beautiful mother who isn’t with us anymore but who I have on several occasions been in contact with through my ability as a medium and myself who was grieving the loss of an adoption that had fallen through. I was sitting here reflecting on the paradox of life, how you can hold joy and sadness in your heart at the same time? How you can celebrate special memories and still feel a gaping hole in your heart? Too bad, I wasn’t born a few centuries ago because back then we had different outlets to release our emotions. I’m grateful that I have this place to vent my catharsis and let go of the stuff trapped in my body so it doesn’t consume me. I’m feeling sad because this isn’t the only loss I’ve sustained this year but it is the one which has left me the most wounded. I’ve lost faith in the ability to create safety and security that you create with another human being when you create a bond of trust, you allow yourself to become completely vulnerable. My biggest fear has always been trusting the wrong people. I thought this time, I had made the better choice but I was wrong. I’m not the first person to have been betrayed in a close relationship or been dumped by someone who you thought was family and neither will I be the last but I hope that with each life experience we take time to reflect and see what the lesson is that we can take away. By reflecting on how we are feeling in our heart and in our body we can process our emotions. We can forge ahead and create new connections with other people and hope that the next friend or family member won’t treat you as poorly as the last one. My message for today is that if there is anyone out there who you’ve hurt purposefully or by accident, pick up the phone and apologize. I think having compassion in your heart and forgiveness make you feel lighter. My words of wisdom for today.
Blessings to those who are listening and holding space for me as I grieve this loss.